Day 2

Love is kind:

"Be kind to one another, tender-hearted, forgiving each other just and God in Christ has forgiven you. " --Ephesians 4:32

In addition to saying nothing negative to your spouse today, do at least one act of kindness.

So again today I can say nothing in anger of in a hurtful way I must control my tendency towards being a negative person. I am catching myself alot and stopping my anger I am now praying quite often for God to help me and it is working. Today I went to the store and bought Flowers and a large box of fresh berries for my wife. To the guys out there, flowers are a nice gift. Your love can view them for many days and think fondly about you. I succeded today in not being angry and saying nothing negative to my wife. God has been good!!

Day 1

Love is Patient,

"be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love"--Ephesians 4:2

Today was a dare that was maybe the hardest thing for me, I was directed to keep my temper.
"quick to listen, slow to speak , slow to anger"-- James 1:19

I have a short fuse, even if I don't say much my expressions show my displeasure very obviously. Today I had to hold back any anger and practice patience, a tall order for me. Many things happened the kids are noisy I had a hard day at work in 35 degree weather. But I did it! I kept my mouth shut and I noticed in trying to control my temper how often I actually lose control. I must be seen as such a cranky and unhappy man. I am so sorry to anyone that I attacked or made to feel poorly. I am now working very hard to change it and with Gods love there is a large progress.

The love Dare

The Love Dare.

In the last week or so I took to a move "Fireproof" so basically it is about saving a marriage using a Christian basis, after all what is a marriage without God? Hard to know what love truly is if you can't grasp the concept of Gods love... anyway shortly after the movie I realize there is so much more that can be offered through Gods love. Now my marriage is like many, no fights, no real issues but dare I say becoming like that of an old friend, comfortable and take for granted. Humans, especially men and more inclined to fix what is broken and do only the required maintenance. I am guilty of that. So in my new found understanding of love and marriage, I now look at things different. More like a gardener, you start something you nurture it and watch it grow, never being happy until it reaches it full potential and you can enjoy the fruits of the harvest.

I ordered a copy of the book "The Love Dare" and will be outlining my progress here for all to see.. well not that anyone reads this but basically if your hear... enjoy hope it does something for you... God Bless.

Hey all, or should I say Hey Jenni :)

Funny I was sitting the other night thinking about typing something about myself and life, you know those reflective moments where you want to get your thoughts out on paper (or type) and just try to make sense of things. Well for those of you reading who don't know me... why are you here? (kidding) um I no longer am working in the call center racket. Finally gave that one up. I have a set number of stories I read each night to my daughter. One is about a bear that shoots a terrible moose and later makes moose ta-ta. See the bear lives way up north and is a trapper of little cuddly animals. The other story is about a small beaver that goes off each day to work in the woods and achieves his fortune by telling the truth. Soooo these stories gave me an idea, having no gun to shoot a moose I decided to leave the call center and cut wood for a living. Yep I am now in the forestry business. Most people would say that is bad to worse, but I am quite content. Health wise this is great fresh air and exercise, but I guess what is taking me more by surprise is a new found relation to nature and people. I am changing not just physically (down 20 ish pounds) but spiritually. The benefits of this job are impressive. I go out and work harder then anyone I know, I have none of my former stress ( no cranky customers or co workers) and this has done wonders for my life. Now don't all go quitting your job and flocking to the woods... I need that land to feed my family. I guess what I am getting at is, we surround ourselves with things that are stressful and counter productive. We wake each morning to go to work (for apx 40-45 years of your life you spend working) and then we get home and are cranky and dreading the coming of the following day. this wears heavy on ones spirit. I now have time to pray at work, which I do many days... and I usually get a ray of sunshine it seems as I close my eyes and thank God for my blessings. The woods has not made me perfect by any means... but through honest dedication, I will achieve my fortune of being a loving and respected husband and father, who is a devote and worthy christian.

He's back... well for a while anyway

SO.... long time no post

well lots has happened. I am now a dad x2 yep a new dad. baby Niamh was born yesterday. 9lbs 3.5 oz. very cool.... uhm I am looking into a new job, my faithful readers will be familiar with this. And since I only have one reader HI JENNI.. CONGRATS ON THE BABY.. he is a lucky man... and cute to! yeah.. she is my wife.. so there! uhm not really alot to say which is surprising considering I have not been here in a while. I mean lots of stuff has happened but, I am not sure you want to hear about it. I could just ramble on like this for hours and hours but whats the point.

AHHHH right.. I left you all hanging from before. The meaning to life well its simple. find the sure path to righteousness and follow it. Sound simple... well good life is simple, its our wants and needs that complicate life! anyway I am tired and need to sleep.. been a busy week.. but if my wife is reading.. I am glad you are home.. and I LOVE YOU!!

Later.... Much later

So I guess it has been a while. ..

Well what new things do I have to say.. How about this,

I've struggled with self control and the desire to be obedient. This flesh and sinful nature have had and continue to have its way with me from time to time. The Scripture says "to obey is better than sacrifice" (1 Samuel 15:22) and that is often, one and the same thing.

We will find ourselves thinking that the holy spirit has left us that we are no longer under the protection of Gods love. I knew that the Holy Spirit was not missing because God said "he will never leave you or forsake you" (Deuteronomy 31:6). So, I figured something must be getting in the way. Sin was blocking the fruit of the Spirit.

So now what..

Well I guess this is pretty much common sense to most people. If not then consider the above statement a profound news flash.. and get a bible. If you have a bible read it. If you don't have a bible... there is no excuse not to.. so get one.

Anyways...

Ok so what am I getting at.. we spend so much time doing things that we aren't supposed to, that we neglect the things we are. I suck.. (oh and another revelation to you.. you suck too). Now what can we do about this... not sure yet.. but I will post back when I get the answer LOL!!! that and Iwill tell you the meaning of life later too.

OK OK OK... So I am a slacker who didn't update his blog.. sheesh.. at least my biggest fan keeps telling me I need to
So where do I start. well I got the job... so I no longer work in a hole :) YAY GOD!! we are all still coming to terms with the idea I now have a job I like. So what is this new job. Well I am a workforce manager at a new call center. What do that mean you ask?? (well you might ask if you were here and were interested.. or at least actively listening) I pretty much am a scheduler/operations manager. I do everything from making sure the agents are taking lunches and breaks, scheduling vacations, and meeting requests. Forecasting the call volume to agent scheduling.. meah all that general keep the place productive stuff. AND I LOVE IT!! I can feel myself returning to sanity. er ah.. well at least becoming more sane.

In other news.. So I mentioned that I am a dad of a 2 year old... well today is a big step in that whole child development. Anna is now in a "big girl bed" so preparing for the worst.. (this brought on by acrobatics that lead to an airborne child jumping from the crib) we were basically thinking this would be a night of.. "get to your own bed and stay there Anna" instead she has proven once again " BEST CHILD EVER" I put her in her bed and said prayers and sang to her.. then left her as normal. she played.. sang and went to sleep. NOT even did she set a foot on the floor. stayed right there and slept... WHAT A GOOD KID..

So more on that... K first off I am a big guy and I don't mind slapping someone, so if a wise guy out there figures I am wimp for talking about my baby.. better keep it to yourself LOL .. or bring it to my attention and duck.

ahem.. so yeah here is the thing.. I was a holy terror when I was a baby. All I remember hearing when growing up is.. " I hope you have a baby just like you were" as if that would teach me a lesson.. SO I have a baby just like me .. blonde hair blue eyes... and well behaved.. well maybe that part is jenni... but mostly me :)

anyway this kid is awesome.. a total blessing. tonight we went to the store and there were stuffed animals galore.. all these kids crying around us cause parents as saying no they can't have it.. and anna just looked and you could tell she thought "wow kids chill out"

She just ran around looking at everything.. not freaking out at all if she couldn't have anything. Just a happy kid.

SO there I wrote something, I will try to keep coming back but. I am lazy so... don't bank on it.

Other then that.. nothing to tell... OH we are having another baby, hope this one is as good as the last :) I would have it made in the shade. well I am waiting for my loving wife to get home.. so I can have my nightly hugs and sleep ... later all.. GB

So..

Well, looks to be an interesting time. I applied for a job to get out of the hole I am currently in . Looks like I must have got it. As I have a very short interview with them tomorrow only 10 mins that makes interview #4 so it would seem they would have done away with me at this point otherwise. Not much else to say, just put my daughter to bed, she is 2 years old and already in there thanking God for everything " in Jesus name AAA MENNNN" guess she got that from my wife. Of course I pray with her too but not as often. My wife spends more nights putting her to bed as I only do it when she is playing a gig somewhere.

So not much else to write. I came to the conclusion that it is often more satisfying to say and do the right thing then to spend your time working on doing the wrong. more on that another night.

And then

So now what, I just finished reading my latest part of the bible. I had decided to sign up for a "read the bible in a year" email spam. Working pretty good so far. But like most things I am sure I will quit prior to having seen the completion. I guess that is one of my biggest short comming, I like to quit. I say it that way because I think I enjoy the act of quitting more then actually having quit. (if that makes sense). I guess its like all the silly people who keep making the same new years resoultion.. oh I quit smoking, I quit eating poorly ,or I quit picking my nose.. what ever. I think people just like the attention and praise they get when they say they are going to quit something bad for them. I never hear any one saying.. wow this quitting is great!! I love these cravings for a smoke. Well maybe that is a bad example. but I wrote it and now I need to stand by it.

So now what? man I ask that question alot. I hear the rain pounding outside. kinda nice, I bet the rain never has to worry about things.. think about it, you are one of the most important things on the planet (water) and everthing relies on you. But did god see fit to give you insight, self control, or even a toaster. NAH, but humans... oh we got it all. We have so much we need to spend time thinking in order to find something we want... (think about that) how many people go walking through the mall and have no direction on what to buy.. they are simply waiting or looking for a want. Thats pretty damb sad... we need to spend time looking for a selfish want. Maybe that is part of our problem as humans, we just plain have too much. this just proves my point..

People suck.. end of story, time for a new blogg.